My world today.

This past week has been full of change. I moved out of my apartment and have started online classes through an application called zoom. At first I was excited to get an extra week for spring break, getting to stay home and rest a little longer seemed nice. After moving out of my apartment I realized how real everything was getting. I didn’t think the rest of the semester would be online, maybe just a few weeks and then we would be back before finals. As the coronavirus continues to spread rapidly, the chances of this semester ending normally is zero percent in my opinion. My first struggle was finding the motivation to study and do my work at home. I am so used to coming home for a break, not having to do any school work until I return to Chapel Hill. I am still adjusting and trying to find a way to stay motivated. You would think having so much extra time would allow students to get work done ahead of time, but I continue to procrastinate and push everything off till the last day.

Another struggle is learning online. I have found my classes lectures to be less helpful and the teachers being flustered not knowing how to work zoom. It has only been one week, so everyone is still adjusting. Hopefully lectures will get better and feel somewhat normal in the coming weeks. Again, I just can’t focus at home. I placed a table in one of the spare bedrooms and am using that as my desk/ classroom space. Change is always hard to adjust to at first, but I don’t see myself feeling like I did when in an actual classroom. I am less focused and have found there are so many more distractions at home. Even when I close the door and my family is aware I am in class, there are so many noises outside and in my house. This is something I will adjust to and will have to deal with for the rest of the semester.

Overall I miss my friends and how my life was at school. I am on the all-girl competitive cheerleading team and am sad we only got to compete once before our season was abruptly ended. We have spent all year practicing three days a week and now won’t be able to showcase all our hard work we put into a routine. I miss my social life in general, now only seeing my family on a day to day basis has made me realize how many people I am used to seeing and interacting with daily. I am a social chair for my sorority and have been struggling to push off events and get money back due to these unforeseen circumstances. This organization is still struggling to come up with ways to stay connected with everyone, as having a zoom call with over 100 people would be very chaotic. I am sure many students miss how life used to be at school, but I am hopeful we will be back in August ready for a great, fresh start.